lucky number 13

I've been having a roughy time lately. I jumped head first into the working world when i moved back to ohio. i haven't made any friends in the area. all of my friends from here live an hour away. and my mississippi friends are 13 hours away. i seriously thought about picking up an moving back to the dirtttty south last night. just going back to where i was in my comfort zone.
and i've gained 5 lbs since i've moved back. no. no. no. not acceptable.
i've made a promise to myself and my best friend ana texting buddy, malorie, that i'm going to not eat more than 200 calories a day.for ever. i need at least one thing to go the way i planned. right now i'm alone. that wasn't on the agenda. i've gained. that deff wasn't part of the plan. and so i'm changing some things. i kept making excuses, like the weight was just because my uncles are vegetarian and they keep cooking for me..but i DON"T have to eat. i'm 21. i can refuse food if i want too. i am an adult. i kept telling myself it was because of the stresses of my new job. ummm, negative ghost rider, i can deal with stress just fine.
so here's the deal.
no eating more than 200 calories
exorcising EVERYDAY. no exceptions.
if i start losing like i want to, i'm going to reward myself with a new computer for school. i can afford it now, but i'm going to use it for motivation. thinspo will be easier to access b/c right now my laptop is an asshole and desided it wanted to be a desktop. no ma'am. i'm not a happy camper with the 4 year old ACER, aka piece of shit. never get an acer.
i'm going to make myself hang out at different places too. i need to meet new people. i need friends. i need some what of a social life.
i want to get the DVD 'body by bethenny' by bethenny frankel. i have her first book, going to get the second, and i LOVE her! so inspiring.
anyways. i'm going to share with you a few pics of my flabby thighs. mal says she's jealous, but i feel a tad differently. here goes:
oh and i threw in a pic of my ugly mug.enjoy.