if someone happens to read this, sorry for any confusion in advance. I'm in a bit of a jumble and i need to work some stuff out.

so, i've been 'talking' to this guy i work with.he's kind.but wayyy to nice for me. i need someone who can match me quip for quip, nasty sarcastic comment to nasty sarcastic comment. but, alas, i can't turn the boy down. turns out i do have a nice bone in my body...i just don't like to use it.
ugh. i want him to be what i need so much. i want him to push me up against the wall, or the closest hard surface is and kiss me.
i want him to tell me when i'm being an ass.
i want him to tell me when i'm wrong.
i need him to not be so nice.
he's concerned about my eating habits. i'm concerned he knows too much.
i just want to be thin.and find someone who wants someone that's thin.
i want a hard ass, jerk who knows how to get what he wants...not someone who's afraid of giving me a hug.

...on a different note...
i've been running A LOT! i have this watch that is also a heart rate monitor.it tells you the calories burned after you're done exorcising.pretty cool.i've been burning between 500 and 900 calories a day, depending on how far i go.i'm obsessed.my intake has been slim to none.today being the largest at 500 calories.whhooop. hopefully i'll be able to take a crap soon so this bloat will go away. water has been good to me lately.i like it. my clothes are too big. i like that too. a coworker called me an itty bitty today.i'm far from it, but it was nice to hear someone compliment my looks. i have to work a double tomorrow,so i'm going to try and fast.maybe just a piece of fruit in the morning.
i want to weigh 5 lbs less by next week.pretty obtainable goal.
well, i'm tired. burning calories and work have tuckered me out :)