oh hello there. i haven't seen you in some time now. it's been really hard sticking to my plans without you, it seems i can't do this on my own. i need you. your strength and wisdom. yes, i know i've disappointed you and i know you said i'd be begging you to come back.so here i am. begging.pleading you to never leave me again.
that was the conversation i just had with my eating disorder. i feel like i've strayed,like a cheating whore.
it's time to make a change, a new plan. one without loopholes or without leeway for sidetracks.
i bought wintergirls today.i'm only on page 10, but i'm already in love.inspired.motivated.
my birthday is about 2 weeks away.and two days later i have a family picnic.this wednesday rehearsal is at my house to watch a film, to get people into character.and of fucking course we're going to have tons of fat infested food.
ugh.
why does EVERYTHING have to revolve around food.
hope everything's going well with everyone else...i haven't been commenting lately.i feel as though my comments would mean nothing to anybody, i am just that useless.
happy independence day.
xoxo
Wintergirls is such a good book.
ReplyDeleteSeriously I know what you mean about everything revolving around food. Every single fucking holiday and party = massive amounts of food. Good luck!