how in the world do you set this thing up to notify if you've gotten feedback or anything through your e-mail?
i feel lame not already knowing this.haha
in other news.
i feel blah today.
fuzzy even.
i have to do some camera work soon and i'm dreading it. i'm dreading seeing myself on camera. i'm dreading OTHERS seeing me on camera.
because we all know the camera can add 10-20 pounds depending on lighting and the angle of shooting.
i worked a double today.
i ate nothing :)
at home i did eat though
an apple with crunchy peanut butter. and a crystal lite Popsicle.
tomorrow i'll be working about 4 hours in the afternoon, then i'm going jogging,then to a piano recital for the little girl i babysit. i'll miss those kids when i leave.
i'm looking forward to my jog though. i'm actually really antsy right now. maybe i'll go for a job in a bit. i'm kinda scared though. it's 11:30 pm.and very dark.and the park is really secluded.probably not a good idea.
so last night, i was talking to my aunt. she asked me how much weight i've lost. i shrugged. she called me a liar and said, and i quote " if i'd lost weight, i'd brag about it". wellll,i don't brag.
especially when you've just set up a red flag in my brain broadcasting to myself how much i weigh and how far i still need to go.
AND THEN SHE ASKED ME WHY I WASN'T EATING DINNER
really?
ummm, maybe b/c you made me feel awkward about my weight only moments ago, letting me know that you are indeed keeping a mental progress report of what i look like.
she also told me a few nights ago that she had thought about me that morning b/c my tits have shrunk...i don't know why this is being thought, but now it's a topic of discussion.aces.
i was thinking about posting some pictures of myself.but i think i look horrid.
so there goes that idea.
well ladies, i'm fresh out of things to say.
hope everyone is safe, your families are safe, and you all sleep well and wake up tomorrow feeling refreshed and ready to face the day.
xoxo
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ReplyDeleteYour aunt sounds horrid. I cannot fathom, for the life of me, why you would have any issue with your body image or self esteem! Geeze.
Post pics if you want. You are definitely safe from criticism here.
xoxoxo,
zen
thanks lovie!!
ReplyDeletei've decided not to post pictures.if my career takes off I don't want those images to get to young girls who might see me as a role model..if i change my mind my face will be blurred out or something
as horrible as the comments that are made from various family members, i still love them.haha,even if they do add fuel to my disordered fire.