pineapple hurts the roof of my mouth

So. today went like this:
wake up @ 6:30 am, 10:00 am, and then for a final time @ 1:00 pm.
I took laxatives last night. b/c i ate a granola bar.and some pizza.and then another granola bar.
this is a ton of shit i consumed.
and a ton of shitting i did.
along with drinking a ton of water to avoid sever cramping.
I haven't had any adderall today and I feel completely lost.
I feel like I have an appetite, which you lose completely on the pills.
tomorrow i'm going to walgreens to buy jillian micheals 'calorie control' supplements.i've read some reviews and they look promising. i just need something to take my appetite away when i can't take adderall.
having too much time on my hands is driving me insane.
i've completely revamped my ipod.
i bought evanescence's newest album.it brings me back to my freshman year of high school,when ana introduced herself to me.
ahh,sweet memories.
I also bought one of those HUGE containers of pre-cut fruit...this is purely to avoid binging on garbage.fruit is full of fiber and pretty much runs right through me.i bought yogurt too.just b/c it tastes good.and it's yoplait lite, only 110 cals a serving.
my fave person ever did an interview for prevention magazine.this women is the most inspiring person.ever.
when she was 19 she hit puberty..she said she went from a size 0 to a 10 in six months.she had developed an eating disorder and 4 years later she almost died b/c of something with her back...anyways, even though she's uber successful and TINY,she still has the same ED mentality (my thoughts, not what she said). kick ass. she's a vegetarian, and says she 'doesn't eat for entertainment' and growing up jewish made it easier for her to restrict ( this was implied to be about being a veggie, but i read between the lines)
i die if i ever meet her in person.
well, i'd be super excited and play it cool and all, but then i'd come home and blog about her awesomeness.

i've been looking for some inspirational music lately.to keep my mind off of evil things that make me feel disgusting.

wow--a wave of fatigue just hit me. like, my eyes are having trouble staying open.
weird.
i guess i'll end today's rant with that.
good night lovelies xoxo

the point of my story is that she's amazing and an awesome inspiration for me.