i'm feeling like i strongly resemble miss piggy

i need to fast
i need to fast
i need to fast

i don't like food. it's evilness just ozzing out from every surface.

sometimes i feel like i'm doing this for nothing.my efforts go unnoticed or are just ignored.not that i want someone nagging me about not eating.i don't want that. at all.

it seems like every time i walk into the kitchen i feel the need to eat something, to give the illusion that i do eat.

tomorrow can't come soon enough.
i took my little blue pills.the ones that make you completely expel the contents of your stomach and bowel. i'm not sure why i took them. i haven't really eaten anything today.
apple slices,2 slices of bread *yuck*,yogurt,ice cream sandwich,1 spoonful of potatos

for someone who wants to be vegan, i sure did eat a lot of dairy.
tomorrow will be water,diet soda,ice. no food.
if i eat tomorrow i'm going to seriously hate myself.

i look at 'thinspo' and wonder how they do it. i need that willpower. that discipline.

my days in mississippi are coming to an end.i could not be more fucking stoked.

i just had the urge to have a cigarette.
i've smoked maybe three times in my life.
if this becomes a regular thing, i'm going to have to go into super stealth mode. shouldn't be too hard, i keep secrets pretty well.

i've been debating getting a hair cut. an actual cut, not just a trim. i have SUPER curly hair, so short isn't really an option. i really want to grow it out, but it's taking too long.
oh and i'm poor. people who cut hair seems to want money for it...so there goes that idea.

ok then. i'm going to go read all of your lovely blogs and post comments like a good friend.