I want to cuddle a panda bear

so i'm watching TLC right now,with all of the obese specials. i'm not sure if it's because i'm having a weird day,or because i just ate a popsicle...but i feel a strange mix of emotions .like, i'm repulsed by the sight of these people, but i totally get their 'food addiction'. a part of me is saying "ok dude, put down the effing toast" but the more compassionate part of me (which barely makes an appearance) is saying "hmm, maybe this guy is a lot like me, only i'm addicted to being completely empty where as he's addicted to eating nonstop."
things to ponder.
i did fairly well in the past few days. yesterday i only had yogurt and a bowl of cereal. today i had yogurt,apple with peanut butter and a popsicle.

despite my obvious liking of yogurt, i'm thinking about becoming a vegan again. i'm a vegetarian now, and i tried being vegan for about 6 months.it got really frustrating though.and i gave up.
BUT, i think it's time for another go around.
i've been debating going on an all raw vegetable and fruit 'diet'. it'll last between 7 and 10 days i think.i'm using it as a cleanse,a jump start if you will.

blek.i'm tired.but sleep no longer comes easy.

my car is getting looked at tomorrow.might not be the transmission...looks like one of the brakes just locked up. hope so, i can't really afford anything more than that.

sorry i haven't really commented on anyone's blog. i just don't know what to say to people these days.my brain doesn't feel like functioning properly.

i've started packing. let me just tell you how much i hate packing.
i've had to pack and unpack boxes/bags/storage containers 24 times in my short life. and it sucks ass. so, i chuck anything i don't want to pack.
but it's still a pain.
i only have 4 empty boxes left.
i hope i don't have to buy anymore.

this post is going to have an awkward ending.i don't feel like saying goodbye,or good night,or whatever other final statement comes to mind. i'm just going to stop.